black thursday

the morning was fine. after that things went downhill. started the depression coming on and then it reached a crescendo late in the afternoon.

came home and couldn't shake this funk.

please please pray for me - i have not felt this low in a long long time - the reasons are complex and personal. i'm throwing out a lifeline here.

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Darren said…
Santosh
I hear ya. I have those days, and have been struggling off and on with depression for years. My thoughts are with you.
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