roller coaster

well the last couple of days have been quite up and down.

tuesday morning i got word from a major donor organization that we were going to be awarded 25% of what we had requested for first@night. this was a major blow as we were banking on this particular grant to keep us going past may. on tuesday i was really down as i thought this was the end of the road of first@night. this seemed to be the final closed door in a long series of doors being shut in our face. i thought back to other "better" offers i had received at other churches that i had turned down, thinking that this is where god had called us. had i mis-read god's leading? i was starting to well up with regret.

then wednesday afternoon the head of church planting for our denomination dropped by. he helped us draft a new budget for june-december 2006 that kept us afloat. this changed our spirits considereably as we saw that there were enough resources to keep us going for the rest of the year.

this whole thing has really stretched me. i wonder why large ministries in the states seem to raise tens of millions of dollars to build huge, grand sanctuaries. and we struggle to raise 5 figures. but i rest back on the premise/promise that god is in control. if god gives the vision, he will give the provision.

has this church plant in vancouver been my vision or god's vision? i have to believe that god wills for many churches to be planted in the downtown core which is lacking in churches.

anyways - this was long windy post. if any of you have a few thousand bucks and you don't know where to send it drop me a line and i can lighten your load.